Promise to God

I have been reflecting back on my time in the hospital before my sweet Thomas was born. I spent what felt like a very long nine days and nights in the ICU. I remember praying and crying and begging and pleading with God to please let my son live. Please Lord God let him live and I promise to be a better Christian,  I promise to be a better leader and teacher for my family just please let him live and I promise to do all these things for you. I was bargaining , begging and pleading with all my heart crying out to God. Well , God did let him live. He was my baby here for 20 hours.  I didn't have nearly enough time with him but I cherish every second he was here.  My Thomas now lives with his heavenly father. He LIVES so I will praise God and be thankful even though my heart is broken and my soul is aching.  I know God will see me through this season of hurt.  I pray that I can live up to my end of the bargain and be a better leader and a better teacher for my family. I pray we will all praise you and worship you and grow closer and deeper in love with you every day.

Savannah

We just received some very bad news two days ago. Our beloved doggy Savannah is terminally ill. She has been staying with Josh's mom since I have been home from the hospital. Josh's Mom unexpectedly lost her dog while I was in the hospital. She ended up taking Savannah to stay with her while Josh was doing a lot of back and fourth to the hospital to see me. When I came home from the hospital I was physically weak and overwhelmed, so Josh and I decided to have Savannah stay with his mom for awhile. After a few weeks of her being there his mom noticed she was having bloody diarrhea. She took her to the vet and the tested for parasites and sent her home with antibiotics to kill whatever might be causing the bloody poops and they put her on a strict diet. After about two weeks of the new diet  and after antibiotics ran their course she still had bloody stools, so she took her back to the vet. This time they did an ultrasound and found 4 significant sized tumors in her colon and a few other places. The were able to take a small sample with a very thin needle and they are being biopsied right now, however the doctor is not very hopeful and is 99% certain it is cancer. We are all very devastated. The doctor said given how fast this has come on and progressed she believes Savannah's illness will continue to progress rapidly and she wont be with us much longer. We were told Chemotherapy was an option but it would cost 10K and is very hard on the dog and would likely only give her an extra 6 months. We have decided that it would not be fair to put her through the torture of chemotherapy. The Vet instructed us to just enjoy our time with her, to take her on lots of walks, the dog park, beach anywhere we want while we can...she said to just make her life as enjoyable as possible. So as you can imagine we are devastated, we just lost our son and haven't even been able to lay him to rest yet and now we are loosing our 1st "baby" our sweet Savannah. Please pray for our little Savannah to have as much time with us as possible and for her not to feel pain. We appreciate everyone's continued prayers for our family as we are still very much mourning the loss our Son and are starting to plan his memorial.