Promise to God

I have been reflecting back on my time in the hospital before my sweet Thomas was born. I spent what felt like a very long nine days and nights in the ICU. I remember praying and crying and begging and pleading with God to please let my son live. Please Lord God let him live and I promise to be a better Christian,  I promise to be a better leader and teacher for my family just please let him live and I promise to do all these things for you. I was bargaining , begging and pleading with all my heart crying out to God. Well , God did let him live. He was my baby here for 20 hours.  I didn't have nearly enough time with him but I cherish every second he was here.  My Thomas now lives with his heavenly father. He LIVES so I will praise God and be thankful even though my heart is broken and my soul is aching.  I know God will see me through this season of hurt.  I pray that I can live up to my end of the bargain and be a better leader and a better teacher for my family. I pray we will all praise you and worship you and grow closer and deeper in love with you every day.